“My sin I ever see.”
The subject of sin, its consequences and even its remedy is one which we are very unwilling to consider. The love of sin is so strong in us that we prefer not to view sin in the light of the holy law and word of God. We are ready to go on living in sin all our days, not laying to heart that sin is that abominable thing which God hates. It is true that our natural conscience from time to time arouses us out of our stupor and forces us at least to consider how we may obtain relief from the accusations of our own conscience. We do not go, however, to the only balm which can pacify a wounded conscience—the blood of the Lamb of God—but resort to our own devices to bring us peace of mind. These remedies will never remove the guilt of sin.
When the Lord in a day of His mercy and grace does bring sin home upon our conscience by the effectual working of His word and Spirit in our hearts and minds we cannot then put off consideration any longer of the great and solemn issues of sin and salvation. David might appear to have lost sight of his sin for a little time but when the Lord by His Spirit applied the rebuke of the prophet to his soul, then he had to say—”my sin I ever see”.
A sense of sin, however weighty that burden may be, is preferable to a state of indifference. If we are unaffected by sin we have reason to be in a greater state of alarm than if we were deeply conscious of our guilt. The publicans and the harlots were to go into the kingdom of God before the Scribes and the Pharisees, because they realised they were sinners, whereas the Scribes and the Pharisees had no consciousness of sin and guilt and consequently had no need of a Saviour.
Let us ask ourselves how we stand in relation to this solemn matter of sin. Do we see sin as that abominable thing which God hates? Are we conscious of our sin and the awful depravity of our heart? Do we realise our guilt in the presence of the God to whom we must give account at the end of the day? If we are conscious of our ill-desert, if we are sensible that our sin offends infinite majesty and exposes us to the wrath and curse of God eternally; if we have to say with the Psalmist, “my sin I ever see”, it is well that we should be so affected under a sense of our sin. Such a realised sense of sin, far from cutting us off from hope of salvation, is the way that the Lord is pleased to take in His mercy in bringing sinners to the only remedy for sin—the blood of the crucified Saviour.
How wonderful it would be for us as poor sinners, as guilty sinners, as lost sin-laden sinners, to taste of the sweetness of forgiveness—a free and full pardon of our sins through the blood of the everlasting Covenant. If we obtain this we will sing in time and throughout eternity a song of praise to Him who loved us and washed us from our sins in His own blood.