THIS last sketch by Mr. Gogerly, whom the London Missionary Society had sent out in 1819, brings us still nearer the end of the days of this great missionary.
“At this time I paid him my last visit. He was seated near his desk, in the study, dressed in his usual neat attire; his eyes were closed and his hands clasped close together. On his desk was the proof sheet of the last chapter of the New Testament, which he had revised a few days before. His appearance, as he sat there, with the few white locks which adorned his venerable brow, and his placid colourless face, filled me with a kind of awe; for he appeared as then listening to the Master’s summons, and as waiting to depart. I sat, in his presence, for about half an hour and not one word was uttered; for I feared to break that solemn silence, and call back to earth the soul that seemed almost in heaven. At last however I spoke, and well do I remember the identical words that passed between us, tho’ more than 36 years have elapsed since then. I said, ‘My dear friend, you evidently are standing on the borders of the eternal world; do not think it wrong, then, if I ask what are your feelings in the immediate prospect of death?’ The question roused him from his apparent stupor, and opening his languid eyes, he earnestly replied, ‘As far as my personal salvation is concerned, I do not have the shadow of a doubt; I know in Whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him against that day; but when I think I am about to appear in the presence of a Holy God and remember all my sins and manifold imperfections—I tremble.’ He could say no more. The tears trickled down his cheeks and after a while he relapsed into the same state of silence from which I had aroused him.
“Deeply solemn was that interview and important the lesson I then received. Here was one of the most holy and harmless of men whom I ever knew—who lived above the breath of calumny for upwards of 40 years, surrounded by and in close intimacy with many, both European and natives, who would have rejoiced to have witnessed any inconsistency in his conduct, but who were constrained to admire his integrity and Christian character—while thus convinced of the certainty of his salvation, through the merits of that Saviour Whom he preached, yet so impressed with the exceeding sinfulness of sin that he trembled at the thought of appearing before a Holy God! A few days after this event, Dr. Carey retired to his bed, from which he never rose.”