John Newton
Your letter February 19 came to my hand yesterday. I have read it with attention and very willingly sit down to offer you my thoughts. Your case reminds me of my own: my first desires towards the ministry were attended with great uncertainties and difficulties, and the perplexity of my own mind was heightened by the various and opposite judgements of my friends. The advice I have to offer is the result of painful experience and exercise, and for this reason perhaps may not be unacceptable to you. I pray our gracious Lord to make it useful.
I was long distressed, as you are, about what was or was not a proper call to the ministry: it now seems to me an easy point to solve, but perhaps it will not be so to you till the Lord shall make it clear to yourself in your own case. I have no room to say so much as I could; in brief, I think it principally includes three things:
(1.) A warm and earnest desire to be employed in this service. I believe that the man who is once moved by the Spirit of God to this work will prefer it, if attainable, to thousands of gold and silver. Thus, though he is at times intimidated by a sense of its importance and difficulty, compared with his own great insufficiency (for it is to be presumed a call of this sort, if indeed from God, will be accompanied with humility and self-abasement), yet he cannot give it up. I hold it a good rule to inquire, in this point, whether the desire to preach is most fervent in our most lively and spiritual frames and when we are most laid in the dust before the Lord? If so, it is a good sign. But if, as is sometimes the case, a person is very earnest to be a preacher to others when he finds but little hungering and thirsting after grace in his own soul, it is then to be feared his zeal springs rather from a selfish principle than from the Spirit of God.
(2.) Besides this affectionate desire and readiness to preach, some competent sufficiency as to gifts, knowledge and utterance must appear in due time. Surely, if the Lord sends a man to teach others, He will provide him with the
1The first part of a letter written in March 1765 to a man who was considering if he had a call to the ministry. It is taken, with editing, from Newton’s Works, vol 2.
means. I believe many have meant well in setting up for preachers, who yet went beyond or before their call in so doing. The main difference between a minister and a private Christian seems to consist in these ministerial gifts, which are imparted to him not for his own sake but for the edification of others. But then, I say, these are to appear in due time; they are not to be expected instantaneously, but gradually, in the use of proper means. They are necessary for the discharge of the ministry, but not necessary as prerequisites to warrant our desires after it. In your case, you are young and have time before you; therefore I think you need not as yet perplex yourself with inquiring if you have these gifts already. It is sufficient if your desire is fixed and you are willing, in the way of prayer and diligence, to wait upon the Lord for them; as yet you do not need them.
(3.) That which finally evidences a proper call is a corresponding opening in providence, by a gradual train of circumstances pointing out the means, the time and the place, of actually entering on the work. And till this coincidence arrives, you must not expect to be always clear from hesitation in your own mind. The principal caution on this road is not to be too hasty in catching at first appearances. If it is the Lord’s will to bring you into His ministry, He has already appointed your place and service; and though you do not know it at present, you shall at a proper time. If you had the talents of an angel, you could do no good with them till His hour comes and till He leads you to the people whom He has determined to bless by your means.
It is very difficult to restrain ourselves within the bounds of prudence here, when our zeal is warm, a sense of the love of Christ upon our hearts, and a tender compassion for poor sinners is ready to prompt us to break out too soon – but he that believeth shall not make haste. I was about five years under this constraint: sometimes I thought I must preach, though it was in the streets. I listened to everything that seemed plausible, and to many things that were not so. But the Lord graciously and, as it were, insensibly hedged up my way with thorns. Otherwise, if I had been left to my own spirit, I should have put it quite out of my power to have been brought into such a sphere of usefulness as He in his good time has been pleased to lead me to. And I can now see clearly that, at the time I would first have gone out, though my intention was, I hope, good in the main, yet I overrated myself. I did not have that spiritual judgement and experience which are requisite for so great a service.
If love is in proportion to the difficulties to be overcome, and if redemption could be effected only at the cost of the humiliation and crucifixion of the Son of God, the love which did not allow itself to be deterred by such a sacrifice was infinite.
George Smeaton